Of rejections and relationships

Another day, another rejection. Bah. Rejection rate is 5/5 so far, and counting! Let's see if I can make it to 13/13!! I was slightly afraid to check my email today in case there was a raft of rejections. Thankfully, there was only the one waiting for me.

Had a really full on weekend this weekend...left me incredibly exhausted (even though in the scheme of things, it probably wasn't that full on. It's just that I'm used to my cruisy lifestyle)!

First I had the incredibly BORING Advanced Legal Research course from 9-5 on Saturday. If anyone knows of any good websites let me know- I basically spent a good 3/4's of the day surfing the net. Found out that Reese Witherspoon looks great with brown hair, that John Mayer has released 4 live albums on the US iTunes site and that the jury is out on Ashlee Simpson's new album. Not much about legal researching you'll be surprised to know!!

Then after that went over to Roz's place and once more hit the sushi train...yummm. I'm not a huge sushi fan usually, but this place has really original sushi...e.g. the chef's special with salmon, cucumber and cream cheese! And the crunchy sushi with chicken karage and cucumber topped with crunchy tempura crumbs...mmmmm! Ended up getting to sleep about 12:30 (after a late night visit to Cha for Tea), then getting up at about 7:30 to get to church early.

After church I had lunch down at The Rocks with Lockie, Squish and Julz, which was lots of fun. It was a beautiful day to walk down there, but just as we were eating, these huge grey clouds rolled across the blue sky and started raining these huge droplets...luckily it had semi-stopped by the time we left. By the time I got home it was 4 in the arvo, and I had a shower and a 15 min nap before leaving to get to Von's 22nd out in Auburn. Going out there is like....going to another country. I think that whole vibe was accentuated by the fact that we were eating in a Turkish restaurant, and that the Iraqi's were celebrating their win over Australia by basically blockading the road the restaurant was on (which is the main drag of Auburn) and honking their horns really loudly and yelling and waving Iraqi flags. Got home at a not unreasonable time, but ended up sleeping at round 11...but then my phone went off at about 11:30, and it was one of my work friends wanting to know which assessment option she should take for a subject I completed last year which she's doing now. Went back to sleep after getting off the phone...then she calls again....aiii! Then my usual early Monday morning....zzzzz.

Here's the promised relationships part.

I find the silent treatment unsatisfactory. I like to pretend that everything is ok- ok maybe not that. Just be civil like adults is my approach!!! I find myself on the receiving end of the silent treatment. Not that I mind particularly (i.e. that I feel moved to salvage this relationship). But if I don't like you, then you don't like me, and we both know that, and if you're not going to do anything about it and I'm not going to do anything about it and we still have to operate in similar social circles (woe!) then just acknowledge that in the privacy of your own mind (or bitch if you have to)...and be civil when you do see me. I find it intensely irritating on two levels. Firstly, the silent treatment itself is so immature...for goodness' sakes, that's what you do in year 4! And secondly, I'm annoyed at myself for not being able to deal with the situation in a Godly way...what would I do, I wonder!? I just don't think it's worth me getting my knickers in a knot over stuff like this when the relationship didn't mean much to me in the first place. That being said, I do want to do the right thing...(o, but there are so many excuses and reasons not to!! grrrr.)

The other thing is that...you know when people know you so well, that you can say stuff to them that you couldn't say to just anyone because they know you?? I do that aaaall the time...I can say stuff to close friends which to anyone else would sound not-like-how-i-intend-it-to-sound, but they'll pick up my intention behind it. E.g. in Fed Con last session, I was saying to Roz how my laptop was "definitely the most stylish laptop in the room!", and this guy turned around and gave me a weird look...but of course I wasn't being serious...[this is a rather lengthy and verbose pre-cursor to my actual point!]...aaanyway, I think I misjudged how well someone knew me...and they took offence. Argh! Sometimes this relationship feels like I'm walking in friggin' eggshells!! Is it worth it I ask!!?? If you are reading this and you know who you are...I consider you a good friend ok! Lighten up!! You'll get an invite to my small 22nd!!

That is all.
(Haha. I was re-reading Shanna's The Devil Wears Prada...it's an awful book! I can't believe I just made a joke from it!! =p)