Hello,

Well, after that whole previous entry, I went away and cried some more, then talked passionately (I would call it arguing...but it wasn't really. O hang on, maybe it was, Mum was quite PO'd) about the whole situation. The last word I will say on it is that everything ended with a big hug and cry and prayer with my family, so in faith I shall say that it's all good!

But yeah. I'm itchy. I have (let me count here)...TEN mozzie bites on me- including one on my left eyelid and one (can you believe it) on my nose (thank GOD the facial ones aren't itchy though!!). For a while there I was paranoid that I'd lose my double eyelid cos of the gay mozzie bite and I'd have to end up like my Korean friend who went for surgery to get them in the 1st place...but thankfully, I actually had a triple eyelid on that side, so I could afford to spare one. The triple eyelid made putting eyeshadow on a bit weird too, so if it DOES permanantly go, then I won't be too cut up over it's loss! How inane was this paragraph!?! Well, after the angst of the last few weeks of blogging, you should be appreciating it! Hee =).

Last night I went to a kid in our youth group's 16th b'day which was kind of a pool party. OMG, I was traumatised. THOSE KIDS SHOULD PUT MORE CLOTHES ON!!! HAVE THEY NO SHAME!??!?!! Goodness! (Yeah I sound like a parent. So what- they're my "kids"!!) I dunno, it's hard to see the kids as just "people" as opposed to "kids I am responsible for who have some major issues". I mean, last night, everywhere I looked, I just saw issues!! And while it's good (and wise) to be aware of the issues that the kids are going through...I can't lose sight of the fact that they actually are people. Anywayz, it seriously prevented my enjoyment of the night. Everywhere I turned, there was an insecure guy trying to get the girls' attention, or an insecure girl not wearing enough clothes trying to make themselves feel attractive by showing some skin. But if I'm coming across at distainful that's not it at all. My heart really does go out to them...and I just wish I could do something to make them whole. It saddens me to see them having to go to such lengths in order to try and block out other things going on in their lives...

Had lunch with Gracia today, and it was surprisingly enjoyable and non-painful. Got to talk about myself a lot...so maybe I just like having an audience...hehe. Funny. Was talking about the kids and the shocking desplay last night. Sometimes it concerns me that the kids are looking up to my bf (who's also a leader in the youth group) and I as...I guess, 'role models' (of sorts) for their own relationships (which seem to be pretty dodge if you ask me!)- makes me wonder what we are modelling to them. Anyway, I was surprised that Gracia actually said that our peers were inspired by our relationship. Weird! I feel pressure!! No, just kidding...but I dunno, I suppose it reminds me that people are watching and that, as far as possible, I want my life to be a good testimony for God. Hmmm. She also said "It's good to see a stable, strong relationship in amongst all the unsteady ones!". Is it right for me to feel somewhat proud?? (Cos I do!) But then, a lot of things need to be tidied up (but then again, methinks that there'll ALWAYS be things that need tidying up). Still, food for thought.

Anywayz, I can escape my property readings no longer....phooey.

tata!