Hello

I'm going to work today, yay! After finishing my bag, I've found that I've had nothing to do beyond the usual so it's good that I'll be busy (or at least occupied in some way). Also going to a 21st tonight...hummm. Not sure if I can be bothered but whatever.

Had a major case of the self-pities last night. (Kinda ironic hey- as if this whole blog hasn't been one fat self-pity party!!) Probably not good for my general disposition. Gr.

Had leader's GG last night....I dunno, Gracia doesn't really do it for me. Too set in one direction and not flexible enough- like- what she believes isn't really open for discussion and I find it quite irritating. I hope I'm not like that to my kids- don't think so tho, cause I tend to side track to much if anything!! But yeah, I do n't feel totally comfortable. I get this feeling that she doesn't really care about me- she just happens to care about me, because I have a hand in running the ministry and hence I must be at the top of my game. Which is problematic, because when I'm not at the top of my game (spiritually) I don't feel comfortable telling her in case I get 'sacked' or forcibly rehabilitated or whatever. Kinda like, say if you had a drinking problem which was giving you trouble at work, you wouldn't want your AA counsellor to also be your boss. (What a strange example. I'm constantly surprised by the things I come up with when I let my fingers loose on the keyboard!!)

Anywayz, I'm off to cut my nails or do something productive.

Farewell!