Another day, another selfishness struggle of the latter scenario. I don't expect to spend every waking moment with my bf (unlike some have been known to do!), but...I dunno. We haven't seen that much of each other lately cause he's been busy with summer school and assignments and stuff, on top of the usual work. So when it was all done (tomorrow afternoon) I thought we might get to spend some quality time...

You can guess what happened when I suggested.

Pffffffft. I KNOW I'm just *a* priority and not *the* priority. And I KNOW that he has to spend time with friends. And I don't want to be one of *those* sorts of girlfriends (the pushy clingy ones). And I DO appreciate the effort that he went to to spend time with me during the busy times- and the costs incurred. (**BTW, I've cleared all debts now, thank goodness. I'm now in a creditor's position- bad place to be among friends!**)

BUT..(and there's always a but, heh)...

I just thought that he might want to see me too. And I guess I'm just disappointed because he doesn't/didn't (whatever tense that verb is!!).

Sigh. Don't feel guilty or anything, I'll get over it. I'll sew and place icy tower!!

So be it....