Hello.

I logged on here tonight with no agenda...usually I come on because I'm desperately wanting to get something off my chest. But tonight I'm just sitting here at the keyboard waiting to see what comes out.

THINGS I LIKE TO DO
1. I reckon if given half the chance I could be a really good pop songwriter. I don't know where I go to find chances like those. For some reason worship music and me don't gel that great...not incredibly proud of any worship song I've ever written. Maybe cos it all sounds like something someone has done before...hahaha. I think it's because I get stuck in one sort of style and then everything that flows from me sounds like that style. Hrmph. I was saying to bf the other day that the key to writing original worship music is to listen to a lot of styles so when you finally produce something, it's a mishmash of all sorts of different styles and it will sounds original!

2. Make jewellery. I looooove jewellery...that's why I actually like my job. (I hope it's still there when I can work again...hrmph. O well, I can always go back methinks! Funny, most of the people in the company who've been there awhile know that if you quit, they'll always most likely take you back again if you ask them...haha.) Hehe, one of my uni acquaintences remarked to me today "Emmelyn, you're always changing the rings you wear!" I'd like to make really stylish artistic jewellery or really funky original pieces though, not the mass produced cheap Thai fodder that we sell at work. Need some skills in that area. Also need to know where to source stuff (ingredients...now what is the jewellery equivilent of that word??) from.

3. Make handbags. Funnily enough, I'm not particularly into bags as accessory of choice (see above!). I think I just like doing it because they're relatively simple to make so I can concentrate on styling and detailling them how I want. There's nothing more satisfying than something turning out exactly like the way you imagined it in your head. Or even better. But like my jewellery, I'd like to make things that are different and funky. The hard and gay thing is not so much inspiration (cos I have a few ideas floating around in my head) but again, sourcing materials (that's the word!). Lincraft is pretty gay when it comes to nice remnants. Hrrrrrrrr. I think I'd like to make one with a little tile of buttons in the middle. I don't want them to look cheap and south-east-Asian pasar malam-ish tho. Hmmm.

Grrr. All those things seem to be very at odds with what is making up the bulk of my life now. Not that I want to quit uni or whatever, because I really do want to finish my degree even if I don't use it that much (it'd be another one of those useless achievements...kind of like how I always aimed for a UAI number as opposed to what course I wanted to get into....weird huh?). Hrrrr. Life is funny...a part of me thinks your shouldn't make too many advanced plans because it always throws a curveball. Not very much is certain...except God. Phew! An anchor in times of turmoil. Thank God!