Hullo hullo.

I have so much to blog, and so much background to fill you in on (though most of you know about the news)...and if I don't, you're not going to understand my ranting!! So just quickly (and definitely not to be glib) my sister's in a coma after having an operation (not the one I was last talking about...another one to try and remove more tumour) and they're not sure when/whether she'll wake. It's really quite bleak...thank GOD we have our hope in something more real and lasting than what this sometimes very gay world offers! But yeah. It's really surreal and the same time as being numbingly human and here-and-now. They were talking today about the "big decision"- i.e. whether or not they'll turn off life support (just talking ABOUT it tho, as opposed to actually discussing/making the decision), and that in itself belongs to the realm of movies and soaps and news reports, not my life. But here I find myself and my family, and it's very very real.

If the whole situation wasn't so serious, some bits would actually be quite amusing. Like the fact that we seem to be living life from twitch to twitch (she twitches her face or hands sometimes and we all get really excited!)...twitch is such a funny word...onamatopoeic (GOODNESS, you can tell I don't do English anymore, I can't spell it!).

Other miscellaneous observations include:
# The total asian invasion- the waiting room (well...it's more the waiting platform actually) has become our extended family's personal restaurant/dining area. It's right in front of the lifts as you come up and apparently you can smell the food from the lift!
# The ERRRR-ness of my two aunts who just flew in from Singapore this morning. (Ok, I'm gonna be reeeaaally petty here...)(Actually, I won't tirade about them. Just to say that they had the air-conditioner downstairs on when no one was downstairs, one of them had the shower water running about 5 whole minutes before she actually GOT into the shower, and I came home to them and my cousins in the house and I felt distinctly like a stranger in my own home. At LITTLE LEAST they have not encamped in the guest/computer room and I can do this in peace!)(O, I could reeeeaaally go on here about their singleness and perceived selfishness etc etc...but...I won't!)
# The dodginess of emails going round about Rae. I had three separate people tell me about these questionable emails which were flying around (I wasn't getting them) but none of them would tell me what was in them. Hrrr. One of them called it "scaremongering"...whatever. Not much I can do.
# Random visitors and stuff-doers. I KNOW that they're trying to help and mean well etc etc....but....I DUNNO!! Sometimes, it just DOESN'T!!!

So yeah. In other battles...really battling a lack of faith here. Actually, I don't know if it's a lack of faith...I dunno. Do you think Jesus wants us to have faith that he CAN heal, or that he WILL heal? I really don't know. People have said it's the latter (in which case I s'pose I DO have a faith problem)...but in one of the gospels, the question Jesus asks is "Do you believe that I can do this?". So yeah. I really don't know! But, hey, you can all pray for an increase of faith for me anyway, more faith never hurt anyone!

Ok, off to have a shower...
talk later.

bubai! x