Hullo.

I feel neutral to life at the moment. Neutral to resigned. Funny how these things change in the blink of an eye, this morning I felt great. But yeah.
I just wish...haha. I wish for so many things it's probably not wise to give voice to them all. So shut up all of you!

She dreams in colour
And she dances on light
And she sings with the voice of an angel
She sparkles with life

Lately I've had bits and pieces of lyric and melody flitting and floating in my head. Nothing substantial enough to make a whole thing out of. But that bit up there was one of the bits and pieces. I guess that's how I'd describe someone who is really vibrant...alive. Not dimmed with disappointments and misplaced dreams. Just sparkling with life and hope, knowing each day is a new day and bringing her further into a future full of promise.

Why is this person not me?

Dunno. Too idealistic I guess. I have this idea that "real life" and life as described above must exist in parallel universes. But...isn't freedom in Christ the freedom to experience life like that, regardless of the tough times? Hum. Perhaps I'm missing something here. Argh! I want to be happy! Not so contemplative! Happy! Carefree! Exuberant! Magnanimous!

plah plah plah.