Hello my lovelies!

Again, avoiding study, what's new...zzzz. Oh, the sun is going down now and it's so pretty! All pinky-orangy clouds against the pale blue sky...how can you say there is no God!?? It's awesome!

Things haven't been the same
Since I went away
Since I turned my back on You
I've lived between these walls
Made my escape from it all
I try to run but still you follow me
You see

I...I've tried to deny that You are here
I...I've tried to convince myself I'm better off alone
I...I've hit the ground but You're still around...

So take me where You are
Take me to the place where it's just You and me
I'm coming home, I'm coming home
Home to You...

That song has been buzzing round my head today! I only write songs when I'm depressed. All of the whole songs I've written....they're depressing! Well this one isn't TOTALLY bummed...just a little bit. Hmm...

I was making my 21st guest list the other day while again avoiding study (This is actually REAALLY bad, I have a 45% exam tomorrow and haven't covered jack). It was kinda fun actually...yeah that was all I wanted to say about that!

You know, everybody needs (argh, I sound like that Vanessa Amorosi song) someone to believe in them. Someone who thinks that they're the bee's knees (so to speak!!) and who will back them no matter what. Who will stand behind them and their dreams even though they sound like bollocks. I was talking to Gus (one of my GG kids) today who was talking about how after he leaves school he wants to go into Kombi refurbishment...not your conventional law/medicine/commerce dream...and I was encouraging him in it...and I sit here and wonder (well the asian parent in me sits and wonders) whether it was the right thing. He is a smart kid with loads and loads of potential...he could go places if he applied himself. But I guess I wanted to be that person in his life (or one of those people in his life I hope!) who believed in him and supported where he wanted to go no matter what. Actually typing that just reminded me of what Fuzz said once- that affirming someone of their dreams isn't necessarily best for them if their dream isn't good for them. I don't know...who the HECK AM I to judge whether they're dream is good for them or not?? I mean, someone in the past had the dream to build an aeroplane which I'm sure sounded like crap back then but I guess someone believed in the idea and the vision behind it and here we are today. Hmm.

Anywayz....off to do other stuff that may involve studying!!
xxoo