I'm baaaaaaaaaaaaaaack...

I didn't have a very good time. I don't know if it's because I was dodgy in my perspective or just cos...I dunno. Cause I'm over camp. Hum. But yeah. Contributing factors to this feeling of ickiness include:

1) Boyfriend issues
I missed getting to spend time with him and talk to him...I mean, we spent less time together at camp than we do when we're on the oppposite sides of Sydney, and I guess I missed that. Everytime I'd feel that way I'd tell myself "Emmelyn, stop being so selfish, you are NOT here for you...get over it." But well....you can say that, but the end of the matter is that you feel that way and it affects you. Sometimes I'd just wish he would want to talk to me...or spend some moments with me...but...too busy and tired I suppose. O well.

2) Random annoying issues
Such as (a) the exclusivity of certain parties; (b) the martyrdom of certain parties; (c) the budding and blooming issues between the kids...argh!

There were times when I just felt SO lonely and isolated...it really sucked. It always happens to me at camp...wonder why.

But yeah. Haha, I've been to eight of these camps, but only six of the late night sharing times...hehe. Instead I was having a D&M with Lynette. (Aii...I dunno! I consider most people on the leadership team as friends. SO WHY do they assume that I don't care?? Or that I wouldn't be concerned about their general health and well-being?? Go figure- maybe cos they don't consider ME a friend?? Pah.) There are so many unanswered questions...I guess I don't know all the facts, but....well, I can't help having an opinion!! If any concerned parties one day stumble across this blog:
xxx: Maybe it's wiser to leave the leadership team. Sometimes it's not good for u to be exposed to all these stuff which provokes you constantly. Leave yourself space to get over it and to sort yourself out.
xxx: PUT SOME SPACE BETWEEN YOU TWO!! You're not making it better by being there for her! You're exacerbating the situation. ONE DAY it might go back to normal...but not now! And stop treating her so intimately! Treat her like you'd treat any other female friend!

Was that harsh?? Well no one's gonna really read it anyway, but that's what I'd say if I had the hide of a rhinocerous! I've been holding that in for a while now!

Ok, I gotta stop avoiding study and paste my butt to my desk chair...bye bye all

xxoo