Mad shout outs to you all by way of greeting...

I was just thinking (just = 2 seconds ago) whether I should do some kind of semi-mass PR exercise to get some traffic to my blog. That would definitely be weird. Nah. I do say some things here that the next day (or even the next hour) I'm ashamed of...best to keep it on the low down! So, if you're one of the three people I know who is privy to this, feel privileged!!

Some people don't engage in reflective living. They just live life from day to day without actually pondering what they're doing. I'm so not like that- I guess that's why I like the lyrics I posted yesterday. Sometimes, as a Christian, knowing that "God is in control" and all that Rom 8:28 stuff...you get lazy. I know some people who feel like they don't have to find reasons for what they're doing, for the decisions they're making. I don't think that's the Christian life at all....i.e. "Still 'Everything happens for a reason'/ Is no reason not to ask myself/ If I'm living it right...".

Anyway, following on from that, there's something about me that I've observed in the last few weeks. (I LOVE finding stuff out about me that I didn't know before! Don't ask me why!) There's a certain duality to my character that people in general (I guess myself included) find hard to reconcile and come to terms with. Namely, there's a part of me that IS very analytical, very cognitive, very straight forward, (some would say abrasive =P hehe), very objective and unemotional. BUT there's also this part of me that IS emotional, compassionate and deeply feeling. In my experience (limited, I know) people are either one or the other. Like you get the Johns-of-the-world, then you get the Suzies-of-the-world. Thing is, that these two parts of me don't really blend. Like, they don't blend and balance each other. Each part is quite a separate thing- so it's possible that I can feel two separate things about one issue. (I am seriously making it sound like I'm schizophrenic here or something!!)

I think people kinda box me into the Johns-of-the-world box (i.e. the analytical, objective yada yada type) without acknowledging (or even knowing about!) the other side. And then they wonder what the hell happened when the other side of me surfaces. Happened last night after bf read the blog about me caring about the kids...and he was saying "Do you really??" and more generally "How you sound when you blog doesn't equate to you in real life". Well buster, this is me! Hope this explains.

"Don't fence me in...."
bye bye