I don't think anyone is listening (i.e. reading). Think I need to do some targetted publicity. But who to?? What the heck: onwards, ever onwards!!

I'm sitting here drinking Bird's Nest...which is basically this Chinese herbal medicinal stuff- except it's not really herbal. It's made from stuff that these special birds vomit up that's been sweetened and suspended in liquid...but it's actually quite nice straight out of the fridge! Kinda like bits of jelly in sugar water. But yeah...

I've actually been thinking quite a bit. Except the thing is that they (the thoughts) are all so fleeting I can't pin them down long enough to get a decent and substantial train of thought going. But here is a sample of some...

I said last entry how each "relationship milestone" shall we call them, means less and less. Which is really kinda counter-productive really...I mean, I don't want each period that we spend together meaning less and less and ultimately tending toward zero! (Limit as relationship milestones approach infinity = 0) Ideally isn't it supposed to be that as each one passes by, you're more grateful that you're together?? I dunno. And then I extended that thinking to phone calls. Ahhhh phone calls. Pleh. To put all this into perspective, we usually talk for....I dunno, 30mins on average(?) every night. I get the feeling on odd occasion that he feels like it's a chore to be done (cause, yes, I am usually the one that calls). And so I got into this thinking a few nights ago "Everyday, these phone calls mean less and less" trying to convince myself that I don't really mind if we don't talk. This is because I don't want to be a burden and I don't want to feel like I've skipped dinner if I don't talk to him. But then I thought...hey, isn't it kind of like the milestone where everyday you're supposed to appreciate each other more and "fall in love more each day"- and I guess hence, want to spend more time with each other?? Sorry if I'm not expressing myself very well. But does this make any sense at all?? What do you think?? Maybe I'm just a vacuum of needs....and in that case I do apologise.

Anywayz, last night we had our first Bring Your Friends night at youth group. Surprisingly, the kids actually brought friends! There were so many new people...excellent! But, the thing that I'll remember most about the night (aside from Gus mind-mapping the study notes for the passage we were studying and not the actual passage like we were supposed to be doing...hehe!) is how everyone actually looked like they were enjoying themselves. I mean...I know it's not the measure of success in ministry and all, but it was so good to see the kids enjoying what had been planned and not standing around like were too cool for school (like they have on some occasions!) and getting into everything. I don't know why it was any different from any other night- maybe because it was something different- but it was nice (and gratifying, I suppose) to see.

ok, need to get some work done. I basically haven't done any work all week. I had a nap this morning (morning naps!) cos I had this huge headache. I don't know if it's cos I'm actually ill or because I'm just SO unmotivated that I'm coming up with all these excuses and fooling my body into believing them! Plah.

adios xx