Hello.

I'm finding this spurting out of thoughts onto computer screen strangely theraputic. So it's been good! As Reese Witherspoon says "Everybody needs thrapy!". Hmmmmm....

Anywayz, just as I think that life might be returning to normal, my sister had another funny semi-seizure-y kind of thing last night. I wasn't around to see it...I was upstairs (contemplating, then chickening out of calling my kids), but when I got downstairs, everyone was crowded around my sister's "day bed" in the living room and it was eerily quiet. Apparently while eating dessert (Black forest gateaux...yum!) her eyes started rolling and going everywhere. Even when she was lying down by the time I got down, her eyes were still flickering. It just reminded me of the night she had her first seizure...so so scary. I never want to see anything like it again. But yeah, that's the first funny thing that's happened since her operation and it's a sobering reminder of how un-normal things are. Sigh.

Had THE weirdest dream last night!! THE WEIRDEST! It changed settings a few different times. First of all it started out as me playing playstation with my little nieces and nephews. Then we ended up playing the James Bond game....and then (as dreams are wont to do), I ended up being a James Bond-esque character with someone (can't remember who) and we were hunting baddies who were jumping out from doors and stuff. THEN there was this weird thing about cloning people and re-inventing their personalities with brain surgery or something. THEN I ended up hunting these two baddies (one of them was in the form of Charmaine- go figure). THEN I got caught by the baddies and Charmaine was about to kill me...THEN it kinda morphed into this dinner I was having with friends with the baddies present cause they were gonna kill me after the dinner. But no one at the dinner knew they were baddies. Anyway, the baddies kept going to me "O, we should really be going now Em, we have to sort some things out" and I was like saying to Brendan "Are you SURE I can't have a lift home? I'd REALLY like a lift home...", and he ended up saying that he'd wait for me after I sorted things out with the baddies (unbeknownst to him of course). Then Charmaine dragged me to a train station to beat me up but I ended up talking her out of it by appealing to her issues. Then I woke up. WEIRD eh? Well....even weirder, cause Charmaine's a kid from my youth group. Eek! I'll put it down to watching too much television.

Speaking of television, The Bachelor was on last night! The actual guy looks a lot less smooth than the original bachelor (what a sleaze!!), which is a good thing. Though he also looks like a complete jock- but he played the piano for all the girls (awww, how sensitive!) which, I suppose, balanced out his character. I'm sure you were all dying to hear my analysis of him!!

I baked a cheese cake! An Irish cream Chocolate Cheesecake. Tastes yummy, but it's gay and cracked on the top...WHYYY! O well.

Anyway, not much else to say. Do do do...

adieu.