A sense of entitlement

It's funny what we think we're entitled to. Our "rights" if you will.

I seem to have developed this sense that I have a "right" to have my "dreams come true" (ugh, it's an awful cliche I know, but you all know what I mean when I say it, so excuse the lazy prose)- or at least to pursue them. Where did it come from I wonder!? Especially in this world of harsh realities. =p

I was just reading Judith's post about her future direction in terms of career, passions etc, and it made me wonder why in the world she can't make her living from being...I dunno, a book reviewer or famous writer, say, and why it's not something she aspires to (assuming that that's something that she'd be passionate about doing). I mean, sure it's a long shot...but that's not to say that it can't happen. (Can I just add here that this is in no way an indictment/judgment on Judith and I hope it doesn't come across that way! Her post was just the catalyst for this one, which is why I'm using her as an example.) In contrast, somewhere through the course of this year, I seem to have embraced my own long shot dream of perhaps maybe one day (haha) songwriting for a living, against all common sense and practicality.

I seem to have morphed into an idealist in my older age. But...you know, if you're not an idealist in your 20's, then when will you ever have the time to be an idealist again? As I grow older...I know I'll only incur more obligations (mortgage and family spring to mind), and whatever hope I had of grasping that long shot dream will only diminish with time. So, I guess for me, I've come to accept that I should give everything I have got (or everything I can spare more like it) to seeing how far I can take this.

It's a scary thing to be passionate about something...especially to be passionate about some nebulous "maybe, could be, some day, possibly" type thing. It means that you're investing a lot of yourself into something that might never happen and setting yourself up for the distinct possibility of downfall.

Hmm.