Garbled.

My mood from my last post has unfortunately persisted. Damn. (Remind me never to indulge my romantic fantasies again!)

I'm trying to figure out why I feel like this (excluding hormone imbalance...help, I'm developing post- as well as pre-MS!). I'm trying to give a voice to this mixed up thatch of feelings inside me but the words aren't coming in a coherent formation, so here's a snapshot of some of the thoughts.

# I want my own romantic fantasy to come true. I want to believe in the one again! I want to be idealistic about romance and relationships again. I don't want to be so jaded...so in a well-worn groove.
# I want something enlivening, invigorating and exciting to happen to me. I want to experience some kind of success. I'm tired of everyone being better than me.

Argh, feel like crap, I think I'll go to sleep.
It'll be better in the morning.