"I wish the real world would just stop hassling me"

Ergh! Real world, leave me alone!!

There are certain irritating realities about life at the moment, 2 of which are (a) if I don't study I will fail; and (b) if I can't get a job I will be unemployed and will have no money on which to live.

Bugger it.

The thing about dreaming and getting caught up in dreams and believing they could be a possibility is the fact that they take you away from reality. All the while I've been thinking about making my living from being a songwriter every...o say, 5 minutes on average (!), I get further away from the realities of having to actually make the money itself and having to devote myself to my studies now(I have a Family Law exam next week on Wednesday and I have not have not have not read for it since the very beginning...o dear!). Instead I've been day dreaming and writing songs! =p. Unfortunately, just when I've grasped this "not settling for 2nd best in this life!" attitude, reality has crashed down on me. (I think I want to write a non-balladish song called Crash Down...hmm.) Damn. Now I need to reconcile myself with working a boring 9-5 job again.

The catalyst for this whole crash was me telling my parents that someone got heeeaaaapsa clerkship interviews. Suddenly, their whole supportive thing went out the window. I don't think I helped the matter when I said I was preparing myself for unemployment post uni! They got all "You haven't been trying hard enough to get law jobs! How come other people can and you can't!!" =(.

Sigh.

For everyone who has believed in me and expressed their support in one way or other, thank you, thank you, thank you. You have no idea what it means to me- thank you for encouraging me and affirming me in what I love doing. Dammit, one day I'll hear one of my songs on the radio. And maybe...just maybe in about 20 odd years time, I'll be my answer to Diane Warren!

And on a totally different and less depressing note, here are the lyrics to my newest song...written because I reckon every girl can think back to their own Mr Unobtainable =) (It's just a fun song by the way...don't go getting any ideas!! =)

Mr Unobtainable
He's way beyond my reach but I can touch him
It feels like grasping at air
And something 'bout the way he talks intrigues me
And it's like music to my ears
But he doesn't even know I exist
Ladies let me tell you who he is...

He's Mr Unobtainable
Mr So-Compatible
Mr If-he-only-would-look-my-way
He's Mr Popularity
Mr Come-and-dance-with-me
Mr Unobtainable is his name

When he walks into a room, babe, I can feel him
Temperature rises up a notch
And when he hits the floor, oh he moves me
And I drop every thing and watch
But he doesn't even know I exist
Baby let me tell you who he is

He's Mr Unobtainable
Mr So-Compatible
Mr If-he-only-would-look-my-way
He's Mr Popularity
Mr Come-and-dance-with-me
Mr Unobtainable is his name