Comparison is a dangerous thing

Have you ever noticed that the beginning of disatisfaction is comparing yourself with other people??

Sometimes when I foolishly look at the lives of others, I get really down. People are going places I want to go. People are doing things I want to do! Why not me!?! Why them!?!? And it's not like I begrudge them their success (far from it in most cases). But it just makes me all the more dissatisfied with my own life. The main instigator of all dissatisfaction is actually when I look at other people with jobs in law firms, especially big ones. Doesn't anyone want to employ me except dodgy Baku? *sniff* The fact that I get so affected by other people's success in this particular area makes me suspicious as to my actual motivation for saying that "I don't want to work in a big law firm!" (see yesterday's post).

And yet, I really have nothing to complain about (except that lack of a legal job =p). I'm standing on the brink of what could be a nice opportunity for me musically, I'm seeing the light at the end of the exam tunnel (actually, I'm seeing that one a little too soon- waaaay too laid back about these exams =p), and I'm going away on a 3 week tour of select parts of Europe in a few weeks time. Argh! God save me from comparing my life with other people's! It puts a distorted skewed perspective on everything.


All her dreams are starting to come true now
And all her plans are starting to make sense
And I'm trying to be happy
'Cause in a sense I am
I just can't help wondering when my turn will come

You go your way
And I'll go mine
'Cause in the end it's just a matter of time
Keep on moving
Don't look back
'Cause in the end I know that you will surely find
A path that is your own

His life is going in the right direction
With trappings of success at evevry turn
And my small and hard-fought battles
Are trivial it seems
When compared with what he's done
And where he's been

You go your way
And I'll go mine
'Cause in the end it's just a matter of time
Keep on moving
Don't look back
'Cause in the end I know that you will surely find
A path that is your own

I used to ask questions like
"Why them and why not me?"
But now I realise life's a journey
Everybody's got their story
And mine is gonna unfold naturally...