How do you not get a job that is supposedly "in the bag"??

Hehehehe. The post title is funny.

Well, it wasn't so funny a few days ago when I got the knock back! Roz and I had just arrived in our hotel when I realised I had a missed call from a M@llesons number and called it back to be told "[The people that interviewed you] thought you were a strong candidate but because the competition was so strong, we can't give you an offer." (What a waste of money on that call!) I then flopped on my bed and spent a good 5 minutes making wailing noises (ask me for a demo! They're quite unlike anything you've ever heard before!), and feeling like I'd been kicked in the good ol' guts.

The funny thing is that apparently, once you get a 2nd round interview at this place, I've been told by several sources that it's pretty much "in the bag". So how did I not get this job!?! I swear I didn't say anything THAT out of the ordinary at the interview. Maybe if anything, I was overly me. But I was like that in the 1st round! Hrrr. I just didn't click with the partner who interviewed me. Gah.

The more I think about it though, the more I reckon God was conspiring against me!! Argh! No, that sounds overly dramatic. What I mean is that I do believe that everything happens for a reason, and that God is in control of my destiny and has a plan for my life, which doesn't happen to include working in a high flying hot shot top tier corporate law firm at this stage. I can't help wondering whether God knows that, at heart, I am a bludger, and probably would have gone batty having to work so hard for so many ridiculous hours. Today I was actually doing substantive work (i.e. using my brain and legal education) at work for a proportion of the day and I had this sense of "Eeek! Need to find the answer for this dude! Eeek!" Now multiply the work and the pressure on me by 10 and that's what my life would have been like most of the time if I had gotten the job. (Though, you could also multiply the prettiness factor of the office environment by 10....err, no, 100. Hehe.) Now all this is just my speculation, but now in retrospect, I don't know how I would have handled it all. Honestly I could feel the glow of success and pride and prestige floating to my head like alcohol....and also honestly, I don't want to be that sort of person that gets "job proud". I'd rather be proud of other things in my life, thanks. And I'd also rather be pouring my time and energy and LIFE into something a bit more.....non-soul-consuming.

Anyway, whatever the reasons, God has His purposes for me and my life. And for the moment, I suppose kpers is part of the plan! And you know what....I'm ok with it! =)