Indulgence: BGR Sentimentality

Hello hello,

Sop's blog was talking about "Relationships" (geez I hate that word! Sounds so self-important and generally gay!) last and that coupled with a few things has got me thinking.

I have this pact thing going with Dave (yes that Dave- a fit of madness I tell you!) that if we're both single at 30 we will get married. I think we struck this deal at Lockie's 21st. But anywayz, he reminds me of it from time to time and I'm always "Nooo!". But we were talking about it last night and I was saying my usual "Nooo!" and he was saying that by the time I got to 30 if I was still single I'd be wanting to get married to him! I can't think of anything worse!! And not just because it's Dave. The thought of being desperate enough to get hitched to ANYBODY is bad enough. The thought of being hitched to someone that I didn't really love and want to spend the rest of my life with is even worse!! (And the fact that that person has Dave's face isn't much better. But anyway...) But like what Sop said, I'd soooo rather be single than married to someone I didn't love!! Oh, how horrible would that be?? And he was saying things like "And if you're single by 30 then you'll have saved up a bit from working at a nice Law firm, you'll be ready to move into a nice place on the North Shore with me..." HEEEELP!! HEEEELLLLPP!!! I'm not sure if he was just saying it to enjoy my discomfort (probably!) but I'm all freaked out now!

People bf and I know always carry on as if we're going to make it all the way to marriage. It's kind of disconcerting cos they never did/do it to Irene and Lockie, or Squish and Lockie, or Jess and Brendan, or Lynette and Dave...heebiejeebies. I suppose on one hand it's complimentary kind of in a "they think we've got it together" type way. Still. Hmm.

I like my bf. I have a lot of respect for him. He has a drive and a "zest for life" (sounds like citrus zest. Hee.) that I really admire, and find inspiring. He has integrity. Makes me laugh. And if all that before wasn't sentimental enough....*deep breath*....I said it the day we started going out and I still feel the same now: I'm happy when I'm with him.

Enough! hehehehehehe
xxoo